Monday, June 11, 2012

I'M ENGAGED!

For the first time in a long time I feel like I have no words.

I have been single my whole life. I had never dated anyone, kissed anyone, been intimate with anyone...nothing! Some people might look at me as if I'm strange. I've had many 'non-Christian' friends/acquaintances tease me my whole life because I didn't date, but that was fine by me. I believed that even though I had no clue what my future husband looked like, God did.

I look back at my life and just think, wow... God is so so faithful. It hasn't been easy the whole way through. I remember a few nights I would cry out to God with big fat ugly tears asking him if he had forgotten me. All my other friends seemed to be living the picture perfect life, but I was going through life on my own. As music ministry became more intense, I remember last summer feeling so overwhelmed. I told God, "Father ...I'm at my wits end. This is too much. I can't do this a lone..."

Amy Savin Engagement | June 2012
Then along came Peter. Actually, Peter was there for a long time. I met him 4 years ago... just a few months after he had been baptized. He had flown out from California with my brother's friend, and they visited my family for a couple days. I had spoken only very briefly with Peter. I knew only a small portion of his life. I knew that he had experienced some pretty heavy life trials. I appreciated his heart back then. I remember one conversation we had in the car with my younger brother about Salvation. Listening to Peter's answers to my brother's questions I remember thinking to myself, "Wow... Peter really has a good head on his shoulders". But that was it. Never had any feelings for him, never hoped for anything with him.


To make a long story short, Peter felt God placing me on his heart ever since then, but it wasn't until this past summer when Peter flew out to shoot my music video, that God gave me the same conviction. FOUR YEARS LATER! Life is funny isn't it?

A good friend of mine, Lindsey Minaker once told me, "Amy... you don't ever have to stop what you are doing to go look for a spouse. You just keep on serving the Lord, and loving Jesus the way you know how... keep walking through with the calling God has placed on your life, don't look to the left or right, and you will find that person along the same path God has set in motion for you..." How right she was. Little did I know that God had been preparing Peter for a life of music ministry for the past couple years, working with other bands, and experiencing touring life on the road. What is more, Peter is so gifted in all the areas that I'm not! If you take a look at my website, album art, or any of my online presence, that's all Peter for ya :)

DEAR SINGLE WOMEN:
I don't know much about relationships, (honest to goodness I don't), but I feel like this has been true for me: love the Lord with all your heart-- serve him regardless of all your crazy circumstances. Seek first the KINGDOM and then the rest will be given to you. Don't feel like you need to put on a show or go around impressing guys. Just love Jesus. The right guy for you is the one who falls in love with Christ who is hidden in you.


THE PROPOSAL:
While Peter was living in California for the past several years, he was born in Michigan, and currently lives there now. As of late, I've come to realize Michigan is one of thee most beautiful places in the entire world. Here are some snap shots from just a couple days ago.
Mackinac Bridge (Michigan's Lower Peninsula)
Mackinac Bridge (Michigan's Lower Peninsula)

Any of you ever heard of Mackinac Island? It's a beautiful little Island only 3.8 square miles (9.8 km2) located in Lake Huron. It is part of the US state of Michigan. We took the Ferry over Thursday morning and spent the day roaming the whole Island on foot and on bike. It is like a place stuck in time; no cars are on the island. It was honestly like I was in a dream. Everywhere we went was just so breathtakingly beautiful. What is more, I was with my favorite person in the whole world. This past year I've actually been through so many changes and challenges and life has been a little overwhelming. When I arrived on the island I felt like a different person. I told Peter, "I don't ever remember being this happy.." It was so refreshing to just rest and soak in the day. We walked in and out of little shops, bought some delicious fudge, saw Fort Mackinac (built by the British during the American Revolutionary War), and hiked through some of the paths through the woods.

Towards the end of the day, Peter asked me if I wanted to go tour the Island one last time on our bikes before we left. I told him I was exhausted but if he wanted to, I would. When we rode around this time, a lot of people had left and the look-out points by the beach were still and quiet. Half way through our bike ride Peter and I started playing tag. I would smack his arm and ride off and he had to chase me. Eventually we got tired and Peter suggested we stop and rest by the water for a moment.
We parked our bikes and sat on the rocks. He held me close. When we got up to leave I was trying to zip up my jacket. He took my face in his hands (I'll never forget)... and he said.. "Amy I love you so much..." He started to shake. He asked me if I was nervous. I started to laugh. "No...! Why would I be nervous?" I replied. Then I realized what he was about to do. He was hoping I was just as nervous as he was. Haha.

"Will you marry me?"

I started to cry. I guess I knew he would ask me eventually, but when you see God's plan and promises being fulfilled in front of your eyes, it's overwhelming. It's no secret--  life can be full of so much pain. We all know that. But I think without the tears and the heartache, we could never truly appreciate the blessings. Peter means the world to me. His love for me and his love for Jesus humbles me every day. I'm so so blessed to get to share my life with him. Please pray for our journey, for our mission, for our road ahead. This is only the beginning.



My eyes are a little wet as I write this. God is so good. If there is one thing I have learned in this life, it's that God is good. All the time.